Della

<3

2009-07-10T15:47:35Z

Oh, LJ. How I've missed you...

We did it!!

2008-11-04T00:49:42Z

Wedding? Yes?

2008-08-19T00:38:02Z

della @ 2008-05-20T20:29:00

2008-05-21T01:32:27Z

/wave

You know that spot where everything in one part of your life is almost perfect, but everything else is falling apart around you...? Yeah...

(Did that even make sense?)

della @ 2006-12-02T14:57:00

2006-12-02T20:55:41Z

I need addresses for holiday cards... Send to dellador @ gmail.com

Please. Thanks. :)

della @ 2006-07-23T22:20:00

2006-07-24T03:49:29Z

Sometimes I meet people that make me want to punch them in their face so bad...
Other times, I just want to kick them in the stomach.

With the exception of those very, very few cool ones.

I have a very crazy love/hate relationship with my job. I need to just find a new one.
Remember Darko, the puppy... Someone stole him. It was over a month ago, but I think I'm finally coming to terms with the fact that he's gone. It was the most horrible experience having to force myself to face that. We think it was some neighborhood kids. All I can do is hope that if they cared enough to steal him, they care enough to take good care of him. Just another reason for me to hate people.
It's rude for people to think that they can "ruin your night" by just contacting you. I'm over it. Okay?
I've been to Arkansas twice, Missouri, and Vegas just in the past 5 months. And I'm thinking New Mexico will be the next trip. Probably not for a couple of months, but more road trips are definitely in my near future.
I finally got my druid to 60... Now it's just a matter of finding groups to actually do stuff with.
I started a rogue to keep me entertained during the down times. So it all works out.
I desperately want to see Clerks 2... And I'm kicking myself for not going to see it on Friday.
Need. More. Tattoos. Baaaaad.
And umm... My head hurts right now.
The end.

WoW stuff ::

2006-07-02T06:33:15Z

Uhhuh.

della @ 2006-06-01T19:00:00

2006-06-02T00:00:15Z

Vegas bound.
In 3 days.
Vacation time.

Then home again.
Work again.
This life again.

Total Solar Eclipse ::

2006-03-29T09:03:51Z

NASA coverage from 3:30 AM to 6:30 AM CST.

And ::

2006-02-15T13:00:43Z

Johari
Nohari

My thoughts, Her words ::

2006-02-15T12:39:36Z

I was staring at the sky, just lookin' for a star
To pray on or wish on or something like that
I was havin' a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality, I knew, was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment that my chances were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird but it was just a paper bag

Hunger hurts and I want him so bad, oh, it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starvin' works when it costs
Too much to love

And I went crazy again today, lookin' for a strand to climb
Lookin' for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified
Come on, put a little love here in my void
He said it's all in your head and I said so's everything but he didn't get it
I thought he was a man but he was just a little boy

Hunger hurts and I want him so bad, oh, it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starvin' works when it costs
Too much to love

Hunger hurts but I want him so bad, oh, it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess that he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold because these hands are just too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starvin' works when it costs
Too much to love

Hunger hurts but I want him so bad, oh, it kills
Because I know that I'm a mess that he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold because these hands are just too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts but starvin', it works when it costs
Too much to love

della @ 2006-02-05T01:14:00

2006-02-05T08:02:46Z

Commercials give me a headache.
Work makes me more tired than anything else.
I wish my brain had an off switch.
I wish my emotions had an off switch.
I read my horoscope each day as if they're the only words that make sense.
(It's just hope sneaking up on me again, nothing more.)
But what do you have if you don't have dreams??

These days, the dreams are more realistic.
Based on what's happening TODAY, rather than what might happen tomorrow.
And it's probably the hardest thing I've ever been faced with.
It's just in my nature to look at what might be.
The past still haunts me...
I just have to keep telling myself, one thing at a time.

Since it's the small things that have the most meaning...
Saw Hostel Thursday... Mmmmm. Gore.
And Saw 2 on DVD February 14th. (can.not.wait)

della @ 2006-01-10T22:33:00

2006-01-11T04:37:10Z

CAT - your daemon may be a cat if you are
independent and comfort loving. You follow your
heart and do what you want to do - no matter
what others think. You have a strong sense of
your own worth, and an inner dignity. You may
be loving and generous in one moment, and then
lash out at someone in the next. You have as
many moods as there are colours in a rainbow,
and you wear them all brilliantly. You always
know what you want right now - although in five
minutes you may change your mind and set your
sights elsewhere. You like to do things with
style and flair.
When someone else orders you to do something, do
you feel an unholy urge to do exactly the
opposite? That just might be your inner daemon
talking.

What Is Your Daemon?
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della @ 2005-12-28T01:04:00

2005-12-28T07:15:05Z

Just 7 more hours, then 4 days off... I really need the night to go by faster. A LOT faster.

Seen on deeevamp's LJ ::

TWO'S OF EVERY KIND

Two Names You Go By Other Than Your Real Name
I only go by Della.
But I like it when doroshii calls me Delly-bean.
It's cute.

Four Parts of Your Heritage
Umm...

Two Things That Scare You
Getting old.
Love.

Two of Your Everyday Essentials
The 'net
Phone

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
Jeans, and t-shirt.

Two Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love)
Fuck relationships.

Three Truths
I'm tired.
I miss my cats.
People creep me out.

Three Things that Appeal to You in a Member of the Opposite Sex
Eyes.
Honesty.
And... Did I mention honesty??

Two Things You Want Really Badly
Money
My cats back.

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation
Home. (Louisiana)
Any where in Europe.

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die
Write a book.
Experience just 5 minutes of pure happiness. Just 5 minutes...

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now
Work.
How crazy Jim Carrey is. (The Cable Guy is on.)

Two Stores You Shop At
Old Navy
Any shoe store. <3

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO..

. California: Yep.
. Hawaii: Nope.
. Mexico: When I was 2.
. China: No.
. Canada: I'll live there some day.

HAVE YOU EVER...

. Danced naked: No.
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: My dreams are usually pretty realistic, but they have never come true.
. Wished you were the opposite sex: Boys=Stupid. So, no.
. Had an imaginary friend: When I was 4.
. Do you have a crush on someone: No.
. What book are you reading now: I'm in between books right now.

WHATS YOUR...

. Future son's name: Kids=Gross
. Future daughter's name: See previous.
. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: No.
. What's under your bed: Nothing.
. Favorite sport to watch: Don't watch sports.
. Siblings: 3 brothers, 2 sisters.
. Location: Oklahoma City.
. College plans: Hopefully next Fall.
. Piercings/tattoos: Pierced ears (x4), tongue, 1 tattoo.
. Do you drink : Not as much as I'd like to, but yes.
. Who is your best friend: n/a
. What clothes do you sleep in: T-shirt, or tank top.
. Where do you want to get married: n/a
. Who do you really hate: There are a few people, actually.
. Been in Love: Love is fucked up.
. Do you drive: Yes, and I love it.
. Do you have a job: Used to have 2, and will again soon.
. Do you like being around people: Not really.
. Are you for world peace: I'm for reality.
. Are you a health freak: Nope.
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: Of course. Who hasn't??
. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: Yep.
. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: Sort of.
. Want someone you don't have right now: Nope.
. Are you lonely right now: I'm fine.
. Song that's stuck in your head right now?: Astro Creep 2000
. Do you want to get married: No.
. Do you want kids: *blech*
. If you were stranded on a deserted island who would you like to be stuck with and why: I'd rather be alone.

FAVORITE...

. New Person: I really don't like new people.
. Room in house: Bedroom.
. Type(s) of music: Hip-hop
. Band/Group(s): Too many to list.
. Color: Gray, or black...
. Perfume or cologne: White Musk, Calvin Klein's Euphoria, Patchouli mixed with Angel's Breath.
. Month: n/a
. Flower: Iris, Lily, Daisy.

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...

. Cried: I actually cried a little on the way to work tonight. Stupid, sappy songs.
. Bought something: Gas.
. Gotten sick: No.
. Sang: Yep.
. Met someone: Nope.
. Missed someone: I thought about someone, but I don't miss them.
. Hugged someone: No.
. Kissed someone: No.
. Masturbated: Nope.
. Had an orgasm: Nope.
. Became shy around someone: I'm shy around every one.
. Exercised: No. I'm lazy.

della @ 2005-12-11T05:51:00

2005-12-11T11:52:51Z

Happy birthday, doroshii !!!

*mwah*
<3<3<3<3

Movies, Music ::

2005-12-03T10:21:50Z

Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?

Jack Johnson - Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Saw Æon Flux the other day... It wasn't horrible, but I am glad we had a free pass to see it.

della @ 2005-11-29T23:12:00

2005-11-30T05:15:33Z

Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb...in bloom

Down in a hole and I don’t know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
You don’t understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who won’t let himself be

Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, losin’ my soul
I’d like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied

Down in a hole and they’ve put all
The stones in their place
I’ve eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
Of my feelings beneath

Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, losin’ my soul
I’d like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Bury me softly in this womb
Oh I want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh I want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers (oh I want to be inside of you)
In a tomb...in bloom
Oh I want to be inside...

Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, losin’ my soul
Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, outta control
I’d like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Weekend highlights ::

2005-11-21T03:40:50Z

Mirrormask ... Mmm...
Laying around and listening to Johnny Cash.
Level 33... 7 more and I'll be as happy as I can be until I get to 60.
Thursday night bar, hanging out, dancing...

Good times, good times.

If only I weren't so tired... 10 1/2 hours of work to go.

Oz ::

2005-11-14T06:44:31Z

"Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable."

\m/ \m/

2005-10-30T08:35:32Z

It doesn't get much better than Beavis and Butthead rocking out to Radiohead's Creep...

Is it 8am yet???? :(

WoW ::

2005-10-29T09:26:43Z

Work, sleep, WoW, repeat.

And then... ::

2005-10-21T05:36:53Z

From styggian:
Post a memory of me you'd like to have. As in, something that has not happened, but you really think it should have.

I will screen the comments so you can say whatever you'd like.

I'm going to pass out now...

2005-10-11T15:59:24Z

stolen from goddesstaby

Look at the following list (behind the cut) and:

1) Bold what is true about you.
2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
3) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
4) Tag five LJ friends.

Tagged :: damnedhatter, cherylsays, dessl0ck, kat_the_mighty, and ravenwings

* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I love olives. Black, specifically.
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.
* I own lots of books.
* I love to play video games.
* I've watched porn movies.
* I have been in a threesome.
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
* I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
* I curse sometimes [a lot]. I try to work at least one swear into every goddamn sentence I say/write.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I'm TOTALLY smart.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I love sushi.
* I talk really, really fast.
* I have fresh breath in the morning.
* I have long hair.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of Canada.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.! (I like to know who's calling before I decide whether or not I want to answer my phone.)
* I like the way that I look.
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I know how to cornrow.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings.
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I think Britney Spears is pretty.
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends.
* I am currently single.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone.
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop.
* I enjoy window shopping. [i would save money...]
* I would rather shop than eat.
* I would classify myself as ghetto.
* I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
* I don't hate anyone.
* I'm a pretty good dancer.
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I believe in God.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before.
* I currently like someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
* I want to have children in the future.
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before.
* I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn.
* I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
* I am shy around the opposite sex.
* I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved.
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on LiveJournal.
* When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
* I enjoy some country music.
* I would die for my best friends.
* I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
* I watch soap operas whenever I can.
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
* I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
* I have dated a close friend's ex.
* I like surveys/memes.
* I am happy at this moment. (Mostly)
* I'm obsessed with guys.
* Democrat.
* Conservative Republican.
* I am punk rockish.
* I am preppy.
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I study for tests most of the time.
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job.
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge.
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I believe in prophetic dreams.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I worked at a McDonald's restaurant. (For 2 months when I was 15.5)
* I hate office jobs.
* I love sci-fi movies.
* I think water rules.
* I went to college out of state.
* I am adopted.
* I like sausage.
* I am a pyro.
* I love the Red Sox.
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I love(d).
* I love kisses.
* I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.
* I adore bright colors.
* I love Dear Abby.
* I can't live without black eyeliner.
* I think school is awesome.
* I think pigtails serve a purpose. HANDLE BARS!
* I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
* I think John Cusack is adorable.
* I fucking hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I watch Food Network way too much.
* I love coaching youth sports.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
* I have ridden/owned a horse.
* I still have every journal I've ever written in.
* I can't stick to a diet.
* I talk in my sleep.
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong (-decade-)century.
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
* Climbing trees is a brilliant pastime.
* I have jazz in my blood.
* I would not be friends with them if they weren't family.
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I love vaginas.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I know who Santos L. Halper is.
* I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
* I love wrestling.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.
* I have been to over 15 conventions.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist.
* I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
* I am ambidextrous.
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
* My computer has a name.
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth.
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries.
* I am extremely flexible.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke or have tried cigarettes.
* I have met a star from ABC's LOST.
* I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
* Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are displeased or seem displeased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
* I have played tennis with my non dominant hand before.
* I have played strip poker with someone else before.
* I read the labels on food, shampoo, and other things just because.
* I have emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
* I know what THAC0 means.
* I have a signed Tom Servo head.
* I'm a judgmental asshole.
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I was a Spice Girls fan and I'm proud of it.
* I have traveled on more than one continent.
* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
* I have seen every single episode of more than one television show.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can sing songs in languages I don't speak.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I am ovulating.
* I am very confused.
* I believe that everything ends.
* I like happy endings.
* I ask too many questions.
* I am a closet philanthropist.
* I can recite all 50 states in alphabetical order, from memory.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
* I have at one time considered becoming an assassin using only a knife and a pack of gum.
* My parents never gave me a set allowance.
* I have no piercings.
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I have more pets than I have good friends.
* I have ridden in a vintage airplane.
* I maintain that Marmite is magically delicious.
* I am obsessed with Victorian literature.
* I love to travel.
* I want to go to the Moon and other places in Space.
* I have a talent for complicating people's lives unintentionally.
* I go completely out of control when I'm on my period.
* I hate 'shipper rivalries, though I've been known to participate.
* I've run away from home.
* Sometimes I have thought about committing suicide.
* When the vampire on Buffy said she had a Superiority Complex, but had an Inferiority Complex about having it. I thought they might as well have been talking about me.
* I have more than four work shirts. Not all from the same job.
* I wish I could relive certain parts of my life.
* I'm obsessed with being clean.
* I can be very self-conscious and am often too worried about what other people think.
* I've done something illegal more than 10 times.
* I'm currently hiding something major about me from most people I know.
* I have yet to have the chicken pox.
* I still think Leonardo DiCaprio kicks ass.
* I've never broken a bone or been stung by a bee/wasp/yellow jacket/etc.
* I still suck my thumb.
* i want to move to japan.
*I have gone sky-diving, and want to go again.

Quote(s) of the Day ::

2005-10-05T13:31:54Z

"The reason why so few good books are written is that so few people who can write know anything."
- Walter Bagehot

"One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory."
- Rita Mae Brown

della @ 2005-10-01T23:18:00

2005-10-02T04:22:36Z

At work, and will be until 8 AM, so anything that can be suggested for entertainment, I'd appreciate it.

I wish Friday would come sooner...